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Looking at the office, that she was about to  leave, hopefully forever, in the coming few weeks, Angie couldn’t believe that it was actually happening. She thought to herself that this is too good to be true. Actually, this was too fast… FAST??? FAST? TOO FAST?? She has been waiting to hear from this other department for the last 6 months, she did the job interview about 3 months ago, had to undergo 2 written tests about 2 months and a half ago… and during all this period she felt that she was going nuts with all the time, the stress and the waiting.

Today in the office, while trying to keep up with all the tasks that she usually has to perform, she was telling herself that this was probably the last time she would perform such tasks.  Deep down, that thought didn’t ring any bells, or move any emotions. She simply didn’t mind stop doing those tasks and simply move on. She knew that she wasn’t going to miss this place or probably she wasn’t aware of how to miss this place yet.

She was feeling “detached”. Like some of her friends kept preaching, repeating, iterating, reiterating, stating and restating for the last few months. Although she never liked this word, but she couldn’t help but feel it. And she knew what it meant to feel detached.

So what on earth does “detached” mean? The website answers.com defines it as following: “detached (adj.):  marked by an absence of emotional involvement and an aloof, impersonal objectivity”. It could also mean : ” cool, composed, collected, unruffled, nonchalant, imperturbable. These adjectives indicate absence of excitement or discomposure in a person, especially in times of stress. Cool usually implies merely a high degree of self-control, but it may also indicate aloofness: “Keep strong, if possible. In any case, keep cool. Have unlimited patience” (B.H. Liddell Hart). “An honest hater is often a better fellow than a cool friend” (John Stuart Blackie). Composed implies serenity arising from self-discipline: The dancer was composed as she prepared for her recital. Collected suggests self-possession: The witness remained collected throughout the questioning. Unruffled emphasizes calm despite circumstances that might elicit agitation: “with contented mind and unruffled spirit” (Anthony Trollope). Nonchalant describes a casual manner that may suggest, sometimes misleadingly, a lack of interest or concern: He reacted to the news in a nonchalant manner. Imperturbable stresses unshakable calmness usually considered as an inherent trait: “A man … /Cool, and quite English, imperturbable” (Byron). Detached implies aloofness resulting either from lack of active concern or from resistance to emotional involvement: He sat through the service with a detached air.

(I can write and rewrite and explain and talk about detachment for hours, days and weeks, but you will never know what it means until you feel it. Trust me, it is worth it 🙂

Thank you 🙂

( By Zeina Gabriel)